Life is moving

Life is moving and I feel so low spiritually. I know he's taking care of me...but I feel so far off so self-serving. I messed up and did stuff I knew I shouldn't, stuff I left behind. And I've confessed it, but I still feel weak and sad about it. God please forgive me. Please forgive me. I want to be closer to you more than I can say. This quest to date has got me focused on it. THat's not what I want. I want to have some fun interesting, growing experiences, led by you. That's what I really want. God please send me a godly man that loves you. I will not be afraid to not ask. Not asking is hiding the truth from yourself and God. He commands us to ask, like little children for what we want. I want companionship, and dang, sex, who doesn't.