Truly Humbled

I messed up again and feel awful in every which way about it. I've confessed it to another Christian and to God. I still feel all tangled up in trying to figure this individual out even though it's not my job, it's God's. I pray for him and I end up thinking about him. Father I need to be washed clean of this so I won't do it again. I need to have faith that you'll take care of me in my loneliness and that I'm not alone. Father help me believe. I feel attacked. I feel that Satan doesn't want me to grow. He wants me to stay stuck and ineffective. I'm asking for God to win here.